Tag Archives: Confidence

Alchemy

As she looks to her past
All lined up like a circle of Mayan dominoes behind her
Each domino their own story
Their own theory on her life
A piece of her in all the worst ways
The music plays
And she sets fire to this domino maze

Dancing to a rhythm that reminds her she is not set in her ways
That her life can truly change

And as the fire circles her, it begins to fear her own flames of desire

For there is nothing more powerful than a woman free from her chains

She has seemingly reclaimed back her power.

Tagged , , , , ,

Courage

Maybe it’s the onslaught of those who do not know me passing judgement
Or the proximity of any soul or being I cannot control

Should I blame it on intrinsic human nature and all its tales
Or would that be pathetic of me? Being emotionally weak and frail

Is it time to say I am just a coward and if all else fails I can reward myself for my numerous excuses, that were once too good enough to fail

Maybe if I am honest I can truly love, only time would tell

Tell me if I am a hopeless romantic, if I am just being heedless in understanding the truth of human nature
O r if my understanding is clear but my pain is powerful

Either way, no man is an island
Am I land to be conquered or do I have a choice as to my position in life

Tagged , , , , ,

The Devil’s Virgin

As I lay languidly on the marble that circled luxurious green plants
I looked around me, saw the beautiful nature of plants and forestry around me
And realised that the sensuality that flowed through me and this silk dress was all me
It was my reality.

Unfortunately, my lover did not feel the same.
Caught up in a den of lust and gluttony of the mind.
A love of money that his soul could not hide.
Ambition was the only thing in his eyes.

Blind to all that was around him
Blind to the comfort and sweet sensations that I await to give him.
He only sought to live the life that was far from him and not revel in the ease and beauty of the roses, jasmines and lavender the world had to offer him.

So I ignored him and continued to revel in my beauty
To revel in the grace that surrounded me
I continued to watch nature take its glorious path to righteousness
To the sun

In these enclosed gardens
These private quarters

I found contentment in the journey of life and not my anxious lover’s arms.

Tagged , , , , , , , , , , ,

Janded Girl/Black Girl

Why do you feel the need to shame me for my difference

Why is my individuality treated like social exhibitionism

 

Even if I walk naked, with my head held high

In the secret, in the quiet

In the forest, where I am alone

 

I still hear your voices of distaste

The words of your disgust

The phrases implying my disgrace

 

Yet if I try to hide

If I try to humble myself

Voices of an angry and jaded Mami come to haunt me

“Sell yourself!

Be proud of yourself!

I will never accept your sense of freedom or individuality

BUT YOU MUST BE BRAVE!”

 

So once again, I draw back my soldier’s shoulders

The warrior of my father’s ancestors

And the beauty of my mother’s ancestral sisters

 

I remember I must keep going to win the fight

To prove within the battle who is right

 

So whilst I am still on this foreign land

I’ll use the sounds of my people and my ancestors to push me

To take into account their memories and their struggles

And to believe in what they have named me.

Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

Just thought I’d say…

Well, recently I turned 20. And boy! Do I feel old!

But not just because of my age, but because all the lessons I have learned and experienced through the two decades that is my life.

I’ve been through ENORMOUS change in the past year, and just thought I’d share some of the lessons that Yahweh has given me the privilege to learn and understand, so I’m gonna share some wise words of wisdom that life has taught me.

First of all, follow your destiny.

As hard as it seems, I promise you, that when you are on the path that has been set out for you byTthe Holy One, The Universe will begin to work in your favour. I was greatly inspire by Paul Coelho’s book ‘The Alachemist‘. This book helped me understand certain things in life will seem like the greatest obstacles, but if you truly discern and be meek, you will find your way to your destination with the help of The Universe, Goodness and Mercy with you every step of the way.

Second, let go of the past.

The past has got to be one of the most significant hindrances I have come across in human beings.

The inability to let the past go will not only hinder your progress, but may even make you regress, or as Lot’s Wife found out, could lead to your destruction.

You see when Lot’s wife looked back at Sodom, she was taking the easy way out. Succumbing to something called Slough. Even in Literature, as seen in John Milton’s Paradise Lost, Belial (Slough) just wants to give up and dwell in the pits of hell, and in some ways we have that option too. It’s what we call in everyday life ‘fight-or-flight’. I believe that in keeping things bottled up in your mind from the past, bitter emotions, memories, situations, they lead to a negative aura, which in effect causes you to dwell in your crap (like Belial wanted too), ending in a negative mindset, which is not healthy for one’s mental well-being.

The Universe attracts what you attract, so if you hope, pray and love, your life will inherit the fruits of all these seeds you sow (I’m not gonna tell you the story about The Sower, I’m sure you already know that lol). However, this means that if you harbor pessimism, spiritual neglect and fear, you will in turn bear these fruits. Well, I hope you do the former and not the latter ^_^

That was long innit? lol

Thirdly, trials are gonna come mate. Deal with it.

Lot’s Wife wanted The Easy Way Out, so The Universe gave it to her. She was instructed to look forward, but she worried about the hardships she would face and her procrastination cost her her destiny.

If every time we gave up when an obstacle came along, I’m sure The Human Race wouldn’t have done so well to you know, survive and all that. At the end of the day it’s survival of the fittest, so you gotta step up spiritually, mentally and physically. Don’t let your destiny slip by you because you’re too scared to fight.

Lastly, aiming specifically at my amazing Eve-like creatures.

In the past two years, I have taken my sexuality and gender into consideration (I’M NOT SAYING SEXUALITY LIKE SEX YOU DIRTY PEOPLE LOL) an what it means to be a ‘woman’.

I mean, ever since I was young I was aware of Patriarchy, or women having to act like men in order to receive the equal amount of respect and recognition a male may have.

And I have one thing to say to all females (and any males reading this lol).

BE CONFIDENT!

For if you let The Evil of Negativity come into your life, it will be hard to let go of it.

Us women, me speaking from my own perspective, have had this idea ingrained in our head that because we were created from or after men, that we are not the original model, that we do not hold as much importance. Well I’m here to say this is a lie.

Me being a Christian, using the analogy of The Garden of Eden, see it as both man and woman, being incomplete without the other. Therefore, both, working in harmony, will make one full complete being.

So just as men should be proud of their sexuality, so should women.

Be confident even in your emotions, don’t pay heed to the guy that’s telling you you’re too overemotional when he insults you, rather know your own mind, your own actions and your own intentions.

Love yourself, love your mind and love God.

And by loving yourself I’m also referring to what kind of guys you let enter your life.

Guys, males, need us, hence why God had to create us, he knew something was missing. So rather than you feeling like something is missing, just know that everything you’re looking for is really in you and that a man should add to you, not subtract.

Which is why I implore girls to love themselves. See yourselves as a beautiful room locked away in a castle full of millions of rooms. This room is you. Adorn and decorate this room. Beautify it and cleanse it. Organize it and maintain it. And do not allow people to come and destroy, damage or steal the precious possessions you have locked away in this room, for Proverbs 31 says ‘A capable, intelligent, and virtuous woman–who is he who can find her? She is far more precious than jewels and her value is far above rubies or pearls’. This is how I GENUINELY think every female should see themselves, this would help us guard our hearts and emotions, that are so susceptible to pain and hurt.

Okay.

I’m done.

As you can see I had a crazy year lol

I hope you enjoyed my post 😀

Love you all!

Ciao!

Tagged , , , , , , , , , , ,