Monthly Archives: October 2012

Mahogany

I am the cook with all her pans
‘Master is this good?’
The Missus pretends she knows better
We all know power dwells in these hands

I am your jezebel with hips of gold
Lips of honey
And the lustrous scent of jasmine
Plough me
Before I get old

I am the one you go to for healing
See me
For ever leaning…
Into the after life

I am the Soul of the World
For from my loins nations sprang forth
And on my shoulders empires were built

Oh,
So I must inquire…
Why does one shoot the hand that feeds thee?

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Emotions

The nothingness

When love becomes lust
And fear becomes hate

Open up your mind and let me see your budding flowers
Those flowers

Oohhh how the scent drives me insane
Aha

As I watch these animals go about their routine
I feel to cut them off!
And give them a shock!

One they’ll remember for the rest of their lives

One that will completely change that life

One where I am their life

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Beautiful Blue

As per usual it’s the dead of night

Me

Alone

With my thoughts.

 

My body degrades as age passes away

My friends mock and make jest of me for my insanity

 

My visions of grey

My visions of red

But most of all, my visions of blue

 

For this Blue brings my sensuality and creativity

Keeps me at the centre of all things beautiful

Of all things Pure

 

But let me go

For my mockers are hungry…

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Why must I feel Blue?

My soul breaks into a million pieces

And yet, remains whole.

 

I am a woman in love.

A murderer on death row.

Lucifer thrown from hell.

 

Why have I chose to endure

All for the satisfaction of my Matter?

 

But is it not better to have loved and lost,

than to have never loved at all?

 

But then I question you, my oh so mysterious ‘love’

Are you formation of matter or mind?

Was this out of my biological control

Or my own illogical reaction?

 

I,

says Love,

Put you and the Soul of the World

To the test.

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Fuschia

‘Pretty in pink’ she once said.

With my white shoes.

Blood curdles around my toes.
I sink in my own blood
Lightened by my lack of depth

Gravity has no effect.

I smile back at her with pity.
Why is it the pink you envy?

Did you not know that it was crafted by children young enough to use their hands
But their sexual organs remain bound?

They see the beauty before their eyes and see blood
Lightened by the artificial love and tenderness of the young.

Are you still envious?

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The Hunting

The predator eyes his pray
The feast that he beholds is that of fire to water
Love to Steal
 
She looks upon her predator with hunger
She longs for death
Life has nothing for her
The land is barren
Her tribe is far
But she will not die submissively
She will raise her arrows
And fight. 
 
She turns from Sodom
And runs
The veins through her body expand
Her heart beat quadruples
Adrenalin comes upon her like a robe
And the prey flees from her predator.
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Just thought I’d say…

Well, recently I turned 20. And boy! Do I feel old!

But not just because of my age, but because all the lessons I have learned and experienced through the two decades that is my life.

I’ve been through ENORMOUS change in the past year, and just thought I’d share some of the lessons that Yahweh has given me the privilege to learn and understand, so I’m gonna share some wise words of wisdom that life has taught me.

First of all, follow your destiny.

As hard as it seems, I promise you, that when you are on the path that has been set out for you byTthe Holy One, The Universe will begin to work in your favour. I was greatly inspire by Paul Coelho’s book ‘The Alachemist‘. This book helped me understand certain things in life will seem like the greatest obstacles, but if you truly discern and be meek, you will find your way to your destination with the help of The Universe, Goodness and Mercy with you every step of the way.

Second, let go of the past.

The past has got to be one of the most significant hindrances I have come across in human beings.

The inability to let the past go will not only hinder your progress, but may even make you regress, or as Lot’s Wife found out, could lead to your destruction.

You see when Lot’s wife looked back at Sodom, she was taking the easy way out. Succumbing to something called Slough. Even in Literature, as seen in John Milton’s Paradise Lost, Belial (Slough) just wants to give up and dwell in the pits of hell, and in some ways we have that option too. It’s what we call in everyday life ‘fight-or-flight’. I believe that in keeping things bottled up in your mind from the past, bitter emotions, memories, situations, they lead to a negative aura, which in effect causes you to dwell in your crap (like Belial wanted too), ending in a negative mindset, which is not healthy for one’s mental well-being.

The Universe attracts what you attract, so if you hope, pray and love, your life will inherit the fruits of all these seeds you sow (I’m not gonna tell you the story about The Sower, I’m sure you already know that lol). However, this means that if you harbor pessimism, spiritual neglect and fear, you will in turn bear these fruits. Well, I hope you do the former and not the latter ^_^

That was long innit? lol

Thirdly, trials are gonna come mate. Deal with it.

Lot’s Wife wanted The Easy Way Out, so The Universe gave it to her. She was instructed to look forward, but she worried about the hardships she would face and her procrastination cost her her destiny.

If every time we gave up when an obstacle came along, I’m sure The Human Race wouldn’t have done so well to you know, survive and all that. At the end of the day it’s survival of the fittest, so you gotta step up spiritually, mentally and physically. Don’t let your destiny slip by you because you’re too scared to fight.

Lastly, aiming specifically at my amazing Eve-like creatures.

In the past two years, I have taken my sexuality and gender into consideration (I’M NOT SAYING SEXUALITY LIKE SEX YOU DIRTY PEOPLE LOL) an what it means to be a ‘woman’.

I mean, ever since I was young I was aware of Patriarchy, or women having to act like men in order to receive the equal amount of respect and recognition a male may have.

And I have one thing to say to all females (and any males reading this lol).

BE CONFIDENT!

For if you let The Evil of Negativity come into your life, it will be hard to let go of it.

Us women, me speaking from my own perspective, have had this idea ingrained in our head that because we were created from or after men, that we are not the original model, that we do not hold as much importance. Well I’m here to say this is a lie.

Me being a Christian, using the analogy of The Garden of Eden, see it as both man and woman, being incomplete without the other. Therefore, both, working in harmony, will make one full complete being.

So just as men should be proud of their sexuality, so should women.

Be confident even in your emotions, don’t pay heed to the guy that’s telling you you’re too overemotional when he insults you, rather know your own mind, your own actions and your own intentions.

Love yourself, love your mind and love God.

And by loving yourself I’m also referring to what kind of guys you let enter your life.

Guys, males, need us, hence why God had to create us, he knew something was missing. So rather than you feeling like something is missing, just know that everything you’re looking for is really in you and that a man should add to you, not subtract.

Which is why I implore girls to love themselves. See yourselves as a beautiful room locked away in a castle full of millions of rooms. This room is you. Adorn and decorate this room. Beautify it and cleanse it. Organize it and maintain it. And do not allow people to come and destroy, damage or steal the precious possessions you have locked away in this room, for Proverbs 31 says ‘A capable, intelligent, and virtuous woman–who is he who can find her? She is far more precious than jewels and her value is far above rubies or pearls’. This is how I GENUINELY think every female should see themselves, this would help us guard our hearts and emotions, that are so susceptible to pain and hurt.

Okay.

I’m done.

As you can see I had a crazy year lol

I hope you enjoyed my post 😀

Love you all!

Ciao!

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Changes

The single rose morphs into a forest
Crushing and strangling me
My blood fertilising the soil
Sapping me of my soul

The refreshing well engulfs me and drowns me
Stripping me of my oxygen

What once kept me safe now endangers me

Hell is on Earth.
All the demons are here.

The fire that kept me warm, made my food, gave me a reason to hope
Chokes me
Dehydrates me
I run
Fire my aura
My fuel
I am consumed.
A never ending statue of ash
Crumbling at the harshness of the elements

My Guardian Angel turns out to be the Grim Reaper… Someone must’ve changed their name tags

Sometimes… Most times
I think it’s God
The devil is too feeble to establish this kind of punishment

The God of Love…
Is the God of wrath

And they have cometh through the elements

The hug that once embraced me
Soothed me
And worshipped me
Now strikes me.
With the same force used in that of love
But shown through fear

My bones crush and deteriorate
(My dreams crush and deteriorate)
My veins explode and my heart burst
(My plans explode and burst)

It seems all of
Shango
Oshun
And Olodumare are against me

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Me vs. Oxygen

I would rather your blood spilt onto my hands than feel the emptiness besides me

I go straight for the neck
To stop that mouth
That mouth of sweet nothings
That give those lips power

I rip through
Oxygen is an issue
Why oxygen when you have me?!
WHAT ABOUT ME?!

I hate you

You knew
All this time

That I
Am crazy

Or would you rather say insane 🙂

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The Psalm

Do you not know that I walked with huntsmen from ages untold
That I have fought Lions and Tigers
Torn apart by their limbs
And tasted sweet nectar from their carcass?

Do you not know that I have danced before the Lord till those I called ‘friend’ turned against me in shame?

I was refined by the purest blacksmith
Made with the whitest fire
And the coldest ice

I fight with a vigour that can match no other

Like a village woman who protects her children
I guard my heart

I come against you

For you… Shall not destroy me.

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